The Blah's and Sugar Crazies

Today is a blah day. I'm still grateful for a lot of things, but I need help and guidance on a whole lot. I gave up sugar six months ago, then slowly dove back into the sugar pool during the holidays, and haven't managed to fully exit the scene ever since. Now I've gone from just dabbling with artificial sweetners and the occasional molasses/agave/honey, to full blown white/cocaine sugar and fake crappy crap sweet crap. Argh! Clearly something is wrong with my diet, I just need to get this junk out of my system and start anew. I know that I need to clean up my diet and go back to eating the way that made me feel good before: protein, veggies, carbs, fats - whole, real foods, no fake foods, and no sweets. I just can't seem to act or feel like a normal human being with sweets. help!

So far this is me today on cocoa and sweetned coffee...

I seriously need help! On the brightside, my soreness from the half marathon on Sunday is much less today. yay! But I have not done my usual Tuesday weight training, and since I've been drinking sugary crap all day, I don't see myself doing it later. I'm giving myself a total day off from health, which is ridiculous, but that's what's happening, period, the end. Tomorrow is a new day, and hopefully no sweets are involved! I need to know that I can recover from this silliness after all. I have accomplished greater things in my life, gosh darnit!

Mood today: frustrated yet happy (that my hip/hamstring pain is less!)

Craving today: ....... sugar. sigh.....

Prayer today: Dear Lord, Please help me with my sugar and food cravings, and help me with my weaknesses! Amen

Inspirational quote of the day:

Gratitude List:

• The Lord
• Angels that the Lord has placed in my life
• My job/coworkers/boss
• This green retro/Madmen style sweater that my Mom gave me :-)
• My stepdad for being an Angel today and giving me a ride to my car
• Max, just for being sweet and normal

Alright, well that concludes my rambles for today. Tomorrow is a new day. My wishes for tomorrow include working out, feeling better, meeting a great sports doctor, having a great day at work, seeing Max, staying away from sugar, eating enough real food, and loving myself :-) Amen